3 days of np camp and 4 days of lifeguard camp..
finally over..
wasnt really happy during the first camp..
once again i almost gave up..
but after wad sir collin say..
it really touch my heart..
he, being a person who always prefer corporal punishment, can say that to us...
so wad makes me think that i shld give up..
like wad he says,
"treat it like a cca..come here and enjoy la.."
now that rvnp has stepped into a whole new world..
we, as officers, must also learn to follow and adapt to the new surrounding which may seem unfamiliar to all of us..
but it really takes time..
one year has passed and i havent got used to it yet..
still having the thought that cp is the best solution..
but is it true??
i guess a few years down the road,
the true ans to this qn will reveal...
june is our ROD, after that i can only wish the unit all the best..
it's really quite disheartening to see officers feeling this way, but it doesnt matter anymore...

lifeguard camp..
first and second day was quite slack, esp the sec day coz of the heavy rain..
didnt had the kind of hiong trg that i was expecting but well..
luckily today was fine..
went for swim trg this morning, found out that i really lack the strength and stamina..den was recreation which truly spoils my mood at the very end..
shan't elaborate abt it..
u seldom see me so pissed off before, unless sth really make me damn sad or angry..
and when i am pissed off, dun get near me...esp guys..

today was really a bad day..
realised i dunno wad i want from my friends and family..
their care and concern?
what type of care?
to what extent?
izzit coz i dunno how to care for others dats why i dunno how others shld care for me?
i haven't been truly happy for a very long time..
i want to but i dunno how to...
life is miserable...