If u dun need a son, den why bother giving birth to me...
I seriously dunno why u will question or even doubt everything that i say..
since u dun believe me, den why bother asking me in the first place?!!
i have been quite nice to him, listening to my mum and treating him as my dad,
but did he treat me as his son??!!!
no...u dun give a d*** about my studies..
u dun give a d*** when i'm sick or injured...
u dun give a d*** about my or rather our health...
u dun give a d*** about my feelings at all...
and not it's only me...
how are u treating mum...picking on her dishes that she made for u...
saying that the food outside is better than hers...
again and again u hurt her...
but wad did she say??
she said nth and just bear with it silently...
i dunno....
i really dunno wads going on in ur mind...
it's been 6 years since we even talk to each other...
things will worsen...or i shld say it has alr worsened...
making me have the thought of leaving the house and breaking ties with u...
all these years, i grow up without the love of a father, only from my mum..
sometimes i really wonder if i even had one...
everytime i look at other ppl's family...
i just asked myself why my family isn't as perfect as theirs..
why my family has so much problems..
i even ask myself if it's my fault...
i once treat everyone in my family with respect, and dats why i bother calling u "dad"..
but now...it seems like u dun even trust and respect me, which is the basic building block to a good family relationship...
so shld i still give u the respect...
i dun wan to hurt my mum coz of our sour relationship, but i dunno how long i can hang in dere..
how many times has my mum told u not to smoke in the house when i'm around and did u even bother listening to her?? no...
u just continue ur bad practices and making me tolerate the second hand smoke..thinking it's wad a son to do..but have u thought of my health?? thought of other ppl's health??
u're so selfish!!!
sometimes it's not that i want to cry, but the kind of pain that i feel inside my heart makes my tears drop naturally...
u really broke ur son's heart....
i always thought i was strong enough to handle such problem and nvr tell anyone about this..
but just as a machine can break down, a human being can too...esp when the problems start to deteriorate...
i was wrong about that, but i dunno who to turn to..so just came here and write down my unhappiness...
i'm really in a loss now...
i dunno wad i shld do to make myself feel better without hurting my mum...
i really need a beam of light to guide me through this dark path that i'm walking on now...