06..Valentine's Day

this year's valentine's day is the most unhappy one dat i ever had...thought the efforts put into doing the present will touch her...thought we could get back tgt, but it seems like i was so stubborn to think dat way...she rejected me...wad can i say? i am rejected by her so many times..but guess today's the worst one, so worse dat i cried in front of her until i felt so giddy to go home...i just cried for half an hour, till my tears went dry, but deep in my heart, its even worse, the blood just flow and flow, like its nvr gonna end...raymond, raymond....its time to give her up...totally give up...i noe life will nvr be the same for me without her...this two years, i will study hard to earn myself a scholarship den i shall fly to other countries to complete my university degree...and maybe settle dere for good....why....why....why things will end up this way??? i felt terrible, really terrible...the thought of death has always been dere...this is my first love, its a true love...but its gone...gone forever...its nvr gonna be back to my side again......nvr again...

dear diary...i felt lonely now...i need someone to hug me and comfort me now...dats all for now...cheer up raymond... =)