this rank is definitely nice to look at,
but wads the meaning of it??
before the CI course, I know it signifies responsibilities.
Not knowing that the worst is yet to be,
the 3 of us attended the course,
came out of the course and the next day was the AGM..
very soon, it will be our one year anniversary as a CI from D06 CIBTC..
throughout this one year of service for rvnp,
many things happen,
many things have changed...
so much so that it is no longer the rvnp that the 6 of us used to know..
so much so that 2 are down, maybe more...
i really ask myself after the chalet,
why i wanna become a CI??
and the same as before,
it is the passion for the corps and unit and it is my responsibility to help the unit attain greater heights..
i like to take up challenges, good one of cuz...
this time it comes a challenge that i dunno whether to gave up anortx..
i dunno whether to hang on to this belief or to give up..
i am really very disappointed with the unit, no matter how hard we tried,
no matter how much we talked nicely..
no matter how much we scold...
it is still as bad...
and recently it has become worse...
wad is happening???
ever since the start of IP, the unit's standard is deteriorating...
had a chat with yini just now...
she told me to hang on and continue to jiayou...
i want to, but somehow i felt that it is not within my capabilities anymore..
wadeva it is, i will give it a try...with a new year comes new hopes..
really really wish that i can use that small and useless strength to make some changes..hopefully...
a govt..no matter how good one may see...
others may deem it otherwise..
the same goes for a leader as well...
in this world, there is nobody who is perfect..
chances have to be given to him...
advices have to be suggested...
ppl around him have to help...
it is the mutual trust and respect that all of us want to have...
and this does not come within days of hard work or wad, but years and years of efforts...
giving up now will only make it harder to be achieved...
of cuz i noe that i am naive in my thinking sometimes,
but i am not and i will nvr be the person who will give up anymore..
i will take up this challenge and do my best,
even if i cant change it,
at least i noe that i have tried and i'll be glad that i have not wasted my 2 years of CI-ship..
to the 2, dun worry, just take a break,i can understand how u all feel but i really really cannot follow the way u all think...i wun blame u all or wad, i know u all have tried ur best and it is really time for u all to take a break...no offence yea??


"Do your best and leave no regrets" -raymond