hmm...some timid girl just told me some jokes just now...
but realised i couldn't laugh at all..
i am very demoralised ever since ytd night when i saw all the timings for the events..
i've always had an aim for this comp...
to at least get 2 medals..
to help the team get into top 5..
but..after ytd night..
i seriously doubt my own ability...
my muscles are still aching after mon's frisbee..
haven't fully recovered yet...
and i only left with 6 more trgs to cut down my PB by 6 secs...
last year's timing for gold medal was 39sec..
my PB is like 45sec?
and i haven't been hitting dat timing for quite some time...
and my rope throwing is getting worse and worse...
i feel fustrated everytime i dun throw well or i dun pull well..
2 medals....i think i can forget abt it...
the kind of stress dat i'm feeling now shld be quite common for many athletes..
but this is my first time and only my second yr being one..
i dunno how to overcome it..
thanks for trying to cheer me up and encourage me...
thanks for listening to my craps...
i dunno wad else i can do besides talking to u...
sometimes i feel quite pitiful for myself..
having a complete family but unable to have a family which i can share my sorrows with..
they only ask me to keep doing my work...and when i relax and watch some tv...
they will say dat i'm slacking...
i'm not a machine...
i have emotions...
i am one who will feel stressed and unhappy...
i am one dat needs rest...
so why can't i have the right to rest?
hmm...this blog is quite unfortunate to have an owner like me who only noes how to complain...

i'm feeling terrible now...