i'm feeling terrible now..
not coz i'm sick or wad...
but coz i just decided to give up on the application for the scholarship..
just got a notice from my fren ytd and i had to submit all the required documents plus essay by tmr..
it's way too rush for me since i haven't even started packing my stuffs for ns..
and my essay seems to have lots of flaws which i have no time to correct tmr...
giving up sth which i have dreamt for since young..
sth that may affect the path that i plan to take in the future....
the thought of this just makes me feel the pain...

feel damn fustrated now...
i shouldn't have gone for work..
shouldn't have initiated to paint my room...
den i can have more quality time with my family and friends...
i'm starting to regret wad i did for the past 2 months...
but it's useless now...
left with one last day...
lots of things that i haven't done....