This week was a saddening one for me,
suffered a serious shoulder joint injury during pool pt on mon,
the same old place where i first injured last yr during the lg comp. It's the 3rd time the same part got injured and this time the pain was more unbearable.
tues it got a little better but still went to see doc and he referred me to a specialist, so continue to do the normal xiong pt with the rest, without knowing that i am actually worsening the injury, until wed when i took part in the pool pt again and sprinted and the pain got worse...
so thurs when i went to the specialist and got lots of x-ray done for both shoulder, and discovered i sprain my right shoulder joint quite badly...
and the doc wanted to give me MC for 6 months!!! and the first word i told him was "NO!"
coz i noe that with a 6 mths MC, it's almost confirmed that i will get out of commando which is the last thing that i ever want.
imagine that u have suffered for 7 months and left only 2 months to the prestigious red beret presentation and u have to leave, i dunno how depressed i will be when that happens.
so the doc just gave me a 2mths MC first, but had to undergo physio for 6mths till i fully recover, which means i can't take any upper limb activity till further notice...
The fear of OOC just kept me occupied throughout the bus trip, to some, OOC for them is a good news but for me it is the most dreadful thing i ever want.
i really wanna complete this last 2 mths of trg phase and getting my red beret with pride and honour.
During NPCC days, i develop this feeling of guilt when i'm injured and can only see the rest do trg but i can't participate. This exact feeling was wad i feel ytd and thurs when i see them do my fav pool pt and platform jump and i could only use my eyes and not my shoulder.
The sense of guilt and the sense of uselessness were the main factors that made me so unhappy this week.
Since i'm only excused of upper limb act, i continue to go for the army half marathon trg, and this morn it was a 10km build up run, the first 8+km was ok for me, ran at a pretty comfortable pace, but after that, i dunno why the shoulder starts to ache up, and the pain just made me slow down by quite alot, but still able to finish the 10km under an hour..
Left 5more weeks to the brunei trg trip, felt a little excited and yet worried that i will worsen my injury during trip. well, maybe i should worry abt the trg that's coming for this week, heard that the tempo is getting faster and faster since we left with very little time to prepare for the brunei trip. just hope my shoulder don't give me anymore prob anymore.
suffered a serious shoulder joint injury during pool pt on mon,
the same old place where i first injured last yr during the lg comp. It's the 3rd time the same part got injured and this time the pain was more unbearable.
tues it got a little better but still went to see doc and he referred me to a specialist, so continue to do the normal xiong pt with the rest, without knowing that i am actually worsening the injury, until wed when i took part in the pool pt again and sprinted and the pain got worse...
so thurs when i went to the specialist and got lots of x-ray done for both shoulder, and discovered i sprain my right shoulder joint quite badly...
and the doc wanted to give me MC for 6 months!!! and the first word i told him was "NO!"
coz i noe that with a 6 mths MC, it's almost confirmed that i will get out of commando which is the last thing that i ever want.
imagine that u have suffered for 7 months and left only 2 months to the prestigious red beret presentation and u have to leave, i dunno how depressed i will be when that happens.
so the doc just gave me a 2mths MC first, but had to undergo physio for 6mths till i fully recover, which means i can't take any upper limb activity till further notice...
The fear of OOC just kept me occupied throughout the bus trip, to some, OOC for them is a good news but for me it is the most dreadful thing i ever want.
i really wanna complete this last 2 mths of trg phase and getting my red beret with pride and honour.
During NPCC days, i develop this feeling of guilt when i'm injured and can only see the rest do trg but i can't participate. This exact feeling was wad i feel ytd and thurs when i see them do my fav pool pt and platform jump and i could only use my eyes and not my shoulder.
The sense of guilt and the sense of uselessness were the main factors that made me so unhappy this week.
Since i'm only excused of upper limb act, i continue to go for the army half marathon trg, and this morn it was a 10km build up run, the first 8+km was ok for me, ran at a pretty comfortable pace, but after that, i dunno why the shoulder starts to ache up, and the pain just made me slow down by quite alot, but still able to finish the 10km under an hour..
Left 5more weeks to the brunei trg trip, felt a little excited and yet worried that i will worsen my injury during trip. well, maybe i should worry abt the trg that's coming for this week, heard that the tempo is getting faster and faster since we left with very little time to prepare for the brunei trip. just hope my shoulder don't give me anymore prob anymore.
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