08..My CNY
these few days was very unhappy for me, depressed man...thought alot of the past..why? why must God make me think of the past? is he prompting me sth? many beautiful and happy memories in the past but it has now turned to become an unhappy thing for me...
ytd woke up from my dreams...dreamt of the past again, the one at safra changi, the night when she had fever, sat by the bed and changed the towel for her, listening to her beautiful snores and watching her sleep...dat time was the first time my heart breaks coz of her, i still rmb dat i was so sad dat i went out to the playground and cried alone, first time i cried for a girl whom i love...den she noe it and came finding me, den we sat at the playground dere and started to watch and count stars..first night dat we spent tgt and it was so romantic to me dat i had this dream so often...den after dat my heart starts to beat until damn fast coz i wanted to hold her hands but dunno how to ask for it, so keep thinking of how to ask for it...finally i thought of it, i stood up and i stick out my palm and ask her, "can i hold your hands?" her face starts to go red and she nodded her head, den she say she had to stand up before i can hold her hands, so i gave way and we start to hold hands, for the very first time, i was very happy then...den we walked along dat stretch of road, suddenly had the feeling dat i am the luckiest guy in this world...den haven enjoy finish my mum slap my butt and woke me up...den very bu shuang...den whole day keep thinking and thinking till i was so depressed...start to tire out myself by helping my mum do housework, den she thought i mad liao, suddenly so hiong help her do...so i help out until 12.30 when i was so tired dat i lie flat on my bed straight after i washed up...
woke up in the morning and waited for my relatives in the living room and think of the past again...not i go think of it one, it just appear in my mind and i cant stop thinking of it...den relatives and cousins start coming in and dat is oso when i find dat my house is super small coz dere were so manyppl until alot of them had to result in standing and not have anywhere to sit...this year was quite special coz in the past my mum will cook for all my relatives for lunch but this year we had buffet for lunch...its not really very nice lar, coz the food not very fresh oso..esp the prawns...den play cards with my cousins..as usual, aaron , clement, lin mei, alicia and me will always stick tgt every year, forming our own clique and playing cards in my room, den chat about steads, clement had his, aaron had his too, and i am the one dat dun have, not trying to say anything but just feel dat i am very lonely this year, not physically but mentally, my gf left me, had to live my life alone...just hope dat they can sustain their relationships and have happy endings..in the afternoon, everyone starts to leave and soon it left me and clement to play with cards, but must first thank him for helping me to woo back my stead, but its no use now...wed will be the judgement coz she say she will think first and ans me on wed, but most prob i will noe wad she will say le...i resign to fate, though life will nvr be the same for me, it will take me a few years to get through this obstacle alone..i noe i am not the only one suffering, she has suffered more than me i believe, everytime had to face pressures from me to salvage this relationhsip...dun worry, after two years i will not appear in front of u again...wish u all the best in finding a guy dat is alot of times better than me...
last but not least, i just wanna post this letter on this blog, it is the first love letter i wrote to her which involves many of my sec 2 classmates in helping me to write it to touch her...i have been trying to locate it and finally i found it and here it goes...
Dearest Xiang jun,
I'd been wanting to tell you this for very very long...Ever since the 3rd session of NP, I have been noticing your angel-like smileand from then, I have had a special feeling that I have never ever experienced before towards you. However, at that time, I did not know what that feeling was. As time passes, this feeling grew like a raging fire .
ni na mi ren que you dai dian xiao ke ai de yan jing, shen shen di chu dong le wo de xin. mei dang wo kan dao ni de ying tao xiao zhui dou hui rang wo jing shen huan fa. sui ran wo ban you ren shuo ni bing mei you wo xiang3 xiang4 zhong de hao, dan wo bing mei you ying ci er gai bian wo dui ni de xin yi.
Raymond
though depressed, i still wanna wish my blog viewers a very very HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! enjoy ur long weekend. =)
ytd woke up from my dreams...dreamt of the past again, the one at safra changi, the night when she had fever, sat by the bed and changed the towel for her, listening to her beautiful snores and watching her sleep...dat time was the first time my heart breaks coz of her, i still rmb dat i was so sad dat i went out to the playground and cried alone, first time i cried for a girl whom i love...den she noe it and came finding me, den we sat at the playground dere and started to watch and count stars..first night dat we spent tgt and it was so romantic to me dat i had this dream so often...den after dat my heart starts to beat until damn fast coz i wanted to hold her hands but dunno how to ask for it, so keep thinking of how to ask for it...finally i thought of it, i stood up and i stick out my palm and ask her, "can i hold your hands?" her face starts to go red and she nodded her head, den she say she had to stand up before i can hold her hands, so i gave way and we start to hold hands, for the very first time, i was very happy then...den we walked along dat stretch of road, suddenly had the feeling dat i am the luckiest guy in this world...den haven enjoy finish my mum slap my butt and woke me up...den very bu shuang...den whole day keep thinking and thinking till i was so depressed...start to tire out myself by helping my mum do housework, den she thought i mad liao, suddenly so hiong help her do...so i help out until 12.30 when i was so tired dat i lie flat on my bed straight after i washed up...
woke up in the morning and waited for my relatives in the living room and think of the past again...not i go think of it one, it just appear in my mind and i cant stop thinking of it...den relatives and cousins start coming in and dat is oso when i find dat my house is super small coz dere were so manyppl until alot of them had to result in standing and not have anywhere to sit...this year was quite special coz in the past my mum will cook for all my relatives for lunch but this year we had buffet for lunch...its not really very nice lar, coz the food not very fresh oso..esp the prawns...den play cards with my cousins..as usual, aaron , clement, lin mei, alicia and me will always stick tgt every year, forming our own clique and playing cards in my room, den chat about steads, clement had his, aaron had his too, and i am the one dat dun have, not trying to say anything but just feel dat i am very lonely this year, not physically but mentally, my gf left me, had to live my life alone...just hope dat they can sustain their relationships and have happy endings..in the afternoon, everyone starts to leave and soon it left me and clement to play with cards, but must first thank him for helping me to woo back my stead, but its no use now...wed will be the judgement coz she say she will think first and ans me on wed, but most prob i will noe wad she will say le...i resign to fate, though life will nvr be the same for me, it will take me a few years to get through this obstacle alone..i noe i am not the only one suffering, she has suffered more than me i believe, everytime had to face pressures from me to salvage this relationhsip...dun worry, after two years i will not appear in front of u again...wish u all the best in finding a guy dat is alot of times better than me...
last but not least, i just wanna post this letter on this blog, it is the first love letter i wrote to her which involves many of my sec 2 classmates in helping me to write it to touch her...i have been trying to locate it and finally i found it and here it goes...
Dearest Xiang jun,
I'd been wanting to tell you this for very very long...Ever since the 3rd session of NP, I have been noticing your angel-like smileand from then, I have had a special feeling that I have never ever experienced before towards you. However, at that time, I did not know what that feeling was. As time passes, this feeling grew like a raging fire .
ni na mi ren que you dai dian xiao ke ai de yan jing, shen shen di chu dong le wo de xin. mei dang wo kan dao ni de ying tao xiao zhui dou hui rang wo jing shen huan fa. sui ran wo ban you ren shuo ni bing mei you wo xiang3 xiang4 zhong de hao, dan wo bing mei you ying ci er gai bian wo dui ni de xin yi.
Raymond
though depressed, i still wanna wish my blog viewers a very very HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! enjoy ur long weekend. =)
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