What is life made of? I have been asking myself this question for quite some time, but up till now i still dun really noe the ans..right now, the most politically correct ans will be studies and cca. hmm, sometimes i think this is right, there are times i am really devoted to studeis, like the pre-promos period, everyday is s 'study' day for me, after promo, it is 'np' and 'pw' day everyday, busy with the camp stuff and my pw stuff at the same time, after the pw and gsc, i have to focus on my BM and CPR cert..ppl tend to ask me, or rather tell me that i have no life..well, dats quite true after the first term this year. I just led a 'good boy' type of life everyday ever since that moment. My one and only encouragement came from my mum, yes, no doubt she'll scold me but most of the time she's the one that make me feel so fortunate. Today, billy said one sentence which was quite true, she said that my family like only made up of me and my mum, and yep its true. I haven't been talking to my sis and dad since dunnoe when due to some particular reason. wadeva it is, i know that right now, my life is only made up of studies and cca, nth else, not even friendship yet..i trust ppl occasionally but if u want me to trust a person wholeheartedly, i can assure u that i can't do it...i noe that i have no life, and u ppl out dere dun have to keep reminding me of that, i dun play com games, i dun like playing games either, and i dun really noe what i like to do...the only thing that is in my head now is to study hard, get a degree and go into the police force, that's all...

because of this character of mine, i am not well liked by my friends, very often i do not have a common topic to talk to them and often felt left out..dats why i'm pondering whether to attend the sqd chalet or not. I dun like going dere and stone or just listen to them talking about their own games. I dun deny the fact that i miss the times with my sqdmates, but what is there to talk to them? the girls will be tgt and basically the guys will be talking about wow or dota which i am not interested in. so i dun noe wad can i do if i were to go dere.. sorry if i offend anyone of u but i seriously dunno wad to do... this is not the case when i were to attend any of the lifeguard's outing because there will be a common topic for all of us to share our opinions. this makes me love my cca. well, i'm not trying to say that i dun love np la..aiya dunno how to put it oso la...

the kind of passion towards np is still the same as before, whenever i go for act, it will help me relax (dunno why oso), haha, i enjoy sharing my experience and knowledge with cadets but dun think they like to see me oso, haha...maybe this is the main reason why i felt attached to it for so long...as for lifeguard, many new challenges and lessons are awaiting for me, the lifesaving competition next year and the BM CPR test which is soon. With this 2 certs, i'll be able to work at the swimming pools as a part time lifeguard after my As..somemore the ppl in lifeguard were very nice oso, enjoy being with them...haha...

oh ya, i forgot this very impt element which oso contributes to my life, and that is my class-SB9!! hmm, whenever i thought of it, it really hurts me...i think all my classmates will understand how i feel, given the strong friendship among us, whatever it is, i will nvr forget the 23 of u after we graduate. For the 20 of us, 2SB9 will continue to excel in all areas, as for our 4 best friends, we will meet everyday at the canteen or void deck to have a chat and will not forget to invite all of u to our future class outings. 1SB9 will always be the best class i ever had in my entire life.