feeling emo again, this time is more of disappointed...i'm going for the mount kinabalu trip this coming tuesday, my first time climbing a mountain and my first time taking a flight. was abit afraid coz this is oso my first time travelling without my parents..haix..but they dun seem to give a damn about it. before the trip they were persuading me not to go coz they bu fang xin, but now they dun ask a single thing about the trip...nvm la, i know i am invisible, suddenly wish that i can go dere and dun come back after that, just get lost dere and remain dere..got this feeling that i am abandoned by the whole world, cant feel any love in this world every since that incident happened...just now was packing my stuff alone behind closed door, they didnt noe, they didnt speak to me, tears welled up again, but nvr cry la, didnt want it to flow out either,i have been feeling this way for quite some time alr, but mainly is coz of stress la, my hw arent done, haven started on my revision, haven started on my phy project, was worried about my pw and had to worry about the planning of the camp, i really feel very very very stressed...in the past i have her to share my burden but now i dun noe who to look for to help me to destress, my brain is exploding soon...really really feel like crying....

tmr had to go down to the unit to take two xiao gua for promo, had to go prepare my u liao, nobody to talk to, nvm, i talk to myself....