i am troubled now..i dunno who to talk to, she's online now, want to talk to her,i had always wanted to talk to her, but because friends are telling me to leave her alone, dat makes me totally bo chap her, in the end i'm the one suffering, i tried to forget her, i really tried..even had infactuation with this girl, really feel very apologetic la, it does not mean that i cant survive without girls la, but i wanted to change my focus so i can forget her easily but guess i was too naive ba...once a love has extends its roots, it is hard to remove it, esp when it's a kind of love that is deep in one's heart. Must admit that love can make a person blind, dat's why my brothers keep saying that i got 'exotic' taste. haix...guess ultimately, i still cant forget her, i can't tell myself not to love her. haix...why am i always trap in this relationship when it's like not possible liao. if she's still around for me, guess i wun be dat stressed liao. the first year of our CIship was definitely tough for the few of us, having to organise the sec 3 atc this year. I am not afraid of being scolded, just afraid that i might disappoint my HOs and TOs. this is an area camp and the safety of more than hundred cadets lie in our hands so this will be a great challenge to me as this is my first time being a coordinator of the camp. Really hope i can plan everything well and ensure that the camp runs smoothly. haix....can we talk? can we be friends? i feel that u are the only one whom i can speak to when i am troubled...