Sometimes i really wish to know what are the cadets thinking nowadays??? I really agree wad eric said ytd, I would rather the unit continue to obtain a silver but maintain its good quality and reputation of rvnp than achieving a gold unit and have a bunch of cadets who dunno wad discipline is abt..the current NCO squad is my one and only squad, i spent my one whole year of NCO life with them, I pass on knowledge to them, accompany them thru each and every activity, had fun with them, angry with their mistakes, and even see some of them grow up, not physically but mentally. When I was still an NCO, I, or in fact my squadmates oso think that they have the potential of upholding the good reputation of rvnp, but all these was wad i saw when i left the unit one year ago. After I became a CI and now when they take over the NCO-ship, I can only ask myself, "did i teach them the spirit of rvnp or only just merely rushing thru the syllabus?" This ATC really made me feel very very disappointed. They committed all the mistakes that an NCO squad should not make, by now...and i can actually hear my fellow instructors questioning the quality of my cadets. NCOs, have u all ever thought of ur CI's feelings when we received these feedbacks??? Do u noe how shameful i feel when ppl criticised the squad that was once under me?? I really dunno wad is in their mind but no matter wad, all of us, the 6 of us and the HOs will do wadeva we can to bring up the reputation of our unit, the CC comp will prove everything..Most of us, or in fact all the current batch of rvnp CIs will step down by march (though the ROD is at dec), we need to concentrate on our As, wun be focusing much on np after that, but before that, we will try our best to train the cadets to win the CC comp and brush up the discipline of the cadets. So much things to do and we only have a few more months left, i dunno if we can do it but there's 1 thing that i am sure and that is we will not want our 'home' to have a bad reputation. NCOs, like wad i say, 'we are CIs, but we not good CIs, u all are NCOs, but u are not yet good NCOs, let's learn to become one.' We really hope that u all can really go and do some reflections and hope to see some improvements next year. As an ex-ic of ur squad, i dun wish to hear anymore negative feedbacks regarding ur squad, not even from our unit's officers. I wish that on the day of ur ROD, i can say that "I'm proud of u all!!"

hmm, all these are just some thoughts on my way home today, really hope they can make the impossible possible...hmm, familiar huh...

"Dun dream of respect, earn it"...our squad's motto(izzit??) well, its really hard to earn one's respect..Whateva that u do, there's bound to create some unhappiness among ppl..Been trying hard to earn ppl's respect but how come it seems like impossible one leh, at least for me la.. haix, no point thinking of all these, do what's right can liao and follow my heart...

YAY! tmr public holiday but sian leh, have to study the stupid GSC, dun feel like studying at all leh, luckily going shopping with my mum tmr, can relax abit...Good luck to those taking the same test as me on fri..after that still got lifeguard training somemore sia, cannot go frisbee training and cannot go and see the unit's amazing race, no choice, next wed is the CPR test liao, must pass and get the cert leh..good luck ppl!!

I miss SB9, stupid lester, can u like organise some outings for the class...@#%*#%&$