10...hurt

i seriously do not noe wad to say about the relationship liao la...today thought dat clement will be able to talk some sense into her head but she dun want to say anything den clement oso dunno wad to say, den they saw me at the arcade, treat them to a game of tc...saw her so unhappy den i oso very xin suan den later on i disappear so dat they can have a chance to talk but clement told me dat she is crying so went over, tried to comfort her, but dunno how to...den i told her dun have to think liao, i will accept the fact dat we broke up and i told her to carry on with her life, from her expression, i oso can tell dat she very worried dat i will do something foolish...i tell u...i am not dat silly, i still have my dreams to fulfill...

went to my relatives' house den my two cousins start to counsel me again, telling me dat dun have this gf nvm still can go find a better one, for a moment i thought of the same thing but when i was bathing just now, i thought again and still think dat i love her alot...oh man, can someone tell me wad to do? i dun wish to hate her but she really hurt me alot, my friends wun hurt me one, so i dunno whether to accept her as friend or not...and i really just cant stop thinking of the past la...wad 280611 deal...wad we will last forever, these are all BULLSHIT now!!! i am both angry and upset...just wanna ask her man, does she love me? but i guess she will say a no ba...u want to give up? u really want? FINE!!! i grant u ur wish...u are freed now...

i hate to be lonely, since she dun want me anymore, i will look for a new gf who really love me and is willing to go through all the hardships with me...its not dat i'm despo or wad, but i really feel dat having a stead will keep me company and not let me feel the loneliness...