just finished reading rj's blog, seems like we are on the same boat, well, we are definitely very unfortunate, fall in love so deeply for sb but in the end they chose to leave us...well, wad can we say? its all fate ba..i've been seeing her very often as well, same lecture group for quite a few subjects, why must the teacher arrange classes in this way...hurts me so much whenever i see her...but recently, i dunno why but i feel dat the hurt had become hatred and anger...i am very angry with her and her bunch of friends coz of some cca matters...hate her coz of the breakup...sb told me dat she very 'hua' nowadays, well, i just told them dat dats how she's like now, she feels more comfortable talking to guys and being with guys, except for me...she's like another yj now...totally treat me as if i am invisible...break up dat time say until so nice dat we can become close friends but look at the situation now? well, this can serve as a warning to all my friends, DUN EVER LIE TO ME JUST COZ U WANNA MAKE ME FEEL BETTER! i hate this kind of ppl...hmm, can say dat my feelings for her are fading away, guess dats a good news for her...

i admit dat i still think of her every now and den but it will not be this way anymore coz of my busy schedule, tues, thurs and maybe sat have lifeguard training, wed got mrc and fri got np..i'm only left with mon and sun dat is free for me to rest abit...well, who cares..as long as i can not think of her, i dun mind keeping myself occupied and keep mugging till i die...or maybe i can be like my senior ytd...hmm, ytd my lifeguard senior didnt have anything before the training, all she had was a bar of kit kat and she went to swim 40 laps non-stop after dat, den when she was resting dat time, she became unconscious...hmm, if one day i am liddat, i will make sure she doesnt noe it...act if she noes oso no diff la, coz she wun give a damn about me...i am nth but a stranger to her...pathetic rite? from a bf to a stranger...haix...dats my fate...if only i can change it myself, i would have let her stay by side forever...i noe dat it is impossible for her to accept me again and dat my feelings will fade away as time pass, so i want to take this opportunity to tell her dat i really love u alot alot, it is really a pity for me for not being able to try out my ideal relationship with u now...hope u will find somebody who loves u more than i do and u loves him too...dun let history repeats itself, confirm ur feelings first before accepting another guy, hope u dun hurt any guy again..

today went for np...was feeling very lethargic lar coz have been training physically for the past one week...having muscles strain here and dere, was sick today act.....had a slight fever and quite a bad flu...must rest well this weekend before another week begins...to all my friends out dere, take good care of urself and rest well during this weekend...see all of u on mon!!