today i made a painful decision and dats to leave her alone to think through things...sb who has experienced all these told me dat she is sort of avoiding me now and i can sense it too...i noe its gonna be sth bad for me but i cannot be selfish...she needs some space to breathe...and i will let her have it by keeping a distance apart from her...to all her friends, pls cheer her up when she is unhappy and lend her your listening ear when she needs it...i am of no use now liao...can only wait quietly at a corner...waiting for her to accept me as a friend...well...meantime i will try to focus on the planning of the atc camp and my studies...

today went to jp with my mei...at first nvr think of anything one but when i start to shop dere, here comes all those fond memories...i can still rmb clearly how i helped her to choose her things for grad night last year...the days and nights dat we work tgt at the taxi stand and all those happy time we had shopping in jp...now i hate to shop dere coz i will just keep thinking and thinking...sorry mei, didnt manage to do a good job in pei-ing u to shop and make u happy...

tmr got npdp rehearsal, at first was thinking of going dere with the cadets but i forgot sth, tmr got the personality test thingy!!! wad de....i want go hta and see them, see how smart they are...lol...shun bian go visit my instructors and falcon mates...i miss them...i miss those days spent with them at hta...my BUNK!!!! i miss it alot alot....hope the test ends early so dat i have enough time to chiong down to hta...

kae lar...dats all for today...go slp liao...good night everyone...have a nice day tmr!