17..i miss her..

close friends? dun think we can...just finish reading a person's blog..dunno if i shld say dat i admire him or pity him, i admire him coz he is now a close friend with her(sth dat i wish alot for), pity him coz he suffered more than me..yup, she's right..dere are ppl who are feeling so much worse than me, he will be a very good example...in the past i treat him as my best friend but its not the same for him ba..sometimes really wanna have a good talk with him...but i really very xian mu him coz he had sth which i yearned for so much...yes..i admit dat it is very painful for me now but i really cant bring myself to hate her or treat her like a stranger..i want to be her very close friend, one whom she can approach when she is angry or unhappy den i can cheer her up...i want to do dat...i want to go to sch and go home with her tgt...den talk and laugh happily...but she keep giving an impression dat she dun want me to be her close friend...well..if dats the case i can only say dat i'm really disappointed...though she may seem happy to alot of her friends, but she seems to me dat she is unhappy when nobody sees her(or maybe i think too much liao) hahax..

today went to my grandma's hse in the morning, den first thing to do when i reached dere was to pray to my grandpa...wad i prayed and said to him was wad i wished for during my birthday two mths ago...well, i shant elaborate about it...after dat i am so sian la, sms her den she say dat she's mugging...den nvr receive any reply or sms from her anymore...wanted so much to talk to her but nvm...felt lonely coz my mum went to help out in the kitchen den only left me alone in the living room...nearly bored to death manx....after i had my lunch i just fell asleep on hte sofa...pig manx....hahax...den when i woke up, my mum says need to go my aunt's hse liao...so go lor...wad de....go dere stone again...watch tv watch until i sleep on the sofa again manx....den start to sms ppl...sms her but she didnt reply...wanted to ask her if tmr want go sch tgt but decided not to in the end...den had steamboat for dinner...nice nice...den after dat gamble with my grandma and my mum and my 2 aunts...hahax...i am using my mum's money to gamble but she didnt say anything...in the end we lost 50cents...lol...i kop away all her 1 dollar coins..can save up...haha..

yea.....i finish all my hw liao...first time manx...felt so relaxed...can go slp now liao...good night everyone...