13..it hurts..

girls dun like guys to pester them right? i guess its a 'yes' ba, the more a guy harass a girl, the more the girl will hate him, dats wad it seems to me now...i keep pleading her to return to my side, but she rejected again and again...and from her tone today, it seems like she is hating me...haix...why will this happen to me? i just wanna have a chance to treat her nicely and bring more surprises to her life but she dun like it...i asked her about her feelings for me and she told me dat the feeling isnt dere and furthermore she dun wanna get into a relationship...why think of it now? if u dun want to den u shouldnt have accept me in the past....why? wanna try out how relationship is like izzit? den dun like it jiu dump me....i noe we had many misunderstandings in the past but i sincerely would like to correct them and carry on with u...haix..i hate to say all these now coz its pointless....now i understand how it is like to cry without any tears coz it has gone dry...today cant focus on my work at all, want to do physics tutorials but in the end cant even concentrate for a minute, tmr gotta stay back again liao....haix...wadeva.....scold me as much as u all like....it would be alot better if u all can hit me manx...dun like me just give me a punch....felt like a loner now manx...life is so miserable, how i wish i can have a friend who really noes me very well so dat i can feel safe talking to him or her and tell him or her all my sorrows and unhappiness...felt like dying.....