16...tears welled again
i hate weekends..completely no mood to mug during weekends coz will think alot, luckily today have recky to labrador park..before i left the house i was like thinking about the past for almost every minute lar...why must all these things keep appearing in my mind, why dun they fuck off and dun let me think of her...do u noe how much it hurts everytime i were to think of her and all those things? i noe its good to have some happy memories with us but it acted as a catalyst to my worsen my unhappiness and my wound..i really cant afford to lose her..all dat i have now is only memories of the past and all the things dat she gave me..the photos dat we took two days before the CI course and the many neo prints dat we took on the same day as well...some were kept in my wallet while the rest are nicely kept in an album...i love her alot, so much so dat i am willing to sacrifice anything just to get her back, but looks like this two years its entirely impossible to win her heart back...she just wanna spend more time with her friends and on her studies, she dun intend to start any relationship for these two years..its like back to square one again...should i continue to wait or should i find another true love? this shall be a mystery dat the God will decide for me...but i really hope dat she can return to my side after two years, coz besides her, i really dun want to accept any girls...well, u all can say dat i am stubborn but love is blind, it can make one blind, i believe dat if the feeling is dere, it will always be dere...at least it applies to me la...
kae la...i'm feeling abit less unhappy le...writing an entry is a good way to release my unhappiness....today's yini's b'dae....YINI!! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!! hahax..really glad to have such good friends like u and eric...i really enjoyed my time with the two of u..whenever i am unhappy, once i see them and talked to them, i will be happy after some time...though everytime we talked mostly about np stuffs but dat's good enough to cheer me up coz np is our life now...well, for me, i'm devoting my time to studies and np now...my friends will keep asking me why i wanna choose to serve np and i'll always reply them with a word and dat's "PASSION" next time dun ask me this question anymore, u all wun be able to imagine how much i love np and how much i wanna do for np, esp for rvnp..the blue uniform dat i'm wearing now will be the uniform dat i am wearing for the rest of my life...hahax...having an ambition is so good, at least u have set the path dat u noe u confirm will take after ur U...being a cadet inspector is not an easy job, many a times i did things wrongly but its through all these mistakes dat made me a better CI..though we may have learnt alot of things during the course but so wad, i'm still learning right now, so dun always assume that CIs noe everything, well, its not true...the next challenge for the few of us will the the ATC dat we are gonna plan this year..will be quite stressed up ba, coz need to mug for EOY promos oso...nvm..TIME MANAGEMENT!!! hahax...act i am looking forward to the ITC camp coz i dun need to be at home!!! den i wun think of all those things anymore...wah nia eh, everytime think of the breakup only will make me wanna cry like hell manx....camp good ah...at least got eric and yini to chat with den wun be unhappy liao...woohoo...great!!!
tues is the day when our postings are out...i'm very sad coz my 2 classmates are going to NJ den got a few need to appeal back to ac...tues is our last class outing liao...time really flies...at first i didnt like the class very much but as time pass, the bond among us gradually strengthens and just when i made alot of good friends, they are leaving...for kee lui and huang zhi, though i wanna scold u 2 alot for choosing NJ, just wanna wish u all the best in ur life in NJ...enjoy mugging dere ba..lol...i will definitely miss the two of u...will definitely invite u 2 to my bdae party next year oso...must come ar den can gather again...=) as for my good friends who need to appeal, i wish u all luck and i will pray for u all on tues....i really really hope dat all of ur appeals are successful coz i dun want anymore ppl in the class to leave ac again...good luck guys..God bless all of u...=)
kae la...i'm feeling abit less unhappy le...writing an entry is a good way to release my unhappiness....today's yini's b'dae....YINI!! HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY!! hahax..really glad to have such good friends like u and eric...i really enjoyed my time with the two of u..whenever i am unhappy, once i see them and talked to them, i will be happy after some time...though everytime we talked mostly about np stuffs but dat's good enough to cheer me up coz np is our life now...well, for me, i'm devoting my time to studies and np now...my friends will keep asking me why i wanna choose to serve np and i'll always reply them with a word and dat's "PASSION" next time dun ask me this question anymore, u all wun be able to imagine how much i love np and how much i wanna do for np, esp for rvnp..the blue uniform dat i'm wearing now will be the uniform dat i am wearing for the rest of my life...hahax...having an ambition is so good, at least u have set the path dat u noe u confirm will take after ur U...being a cadet inspector is not an easy job, many a times i did things wrongly but its through all these mistakes dat made me a better CI..though we may have learnt alot of things during the course but so wad, i'm still learning right now, so dun always assume that CIs noe everything, well, its not true...the next challenge for the few of us will the the ATC dat we are gonna plan this year..will be quite stressed up ba, coz need to mug for EOY promos oso...nvm..TIME MANAGEMENT!!! hahax...act i am looking forward to the ITC camp coz i dun need to be at home!!! den i wun think of all those things anymore...wah nia eh, everytime think of the breakup only will make me wanna cry like hell manx....camp good ah...at least got eric and yini to chat with den wun be unhappy liao...woohoo...great!!!
tues is the day when our postings are out...i'm very sad coz my 2 classmates are going to NJ den got a few need to appeal back to ac...tues is our last class outing liao...time really flies...at first i didnt like the class very much but as time pass, the bond among us gradually strengthens and just when i made alot of good friends, they are leaving...for kee lui and huang zhi, though i wanna scold u 2 alot for choosing NJ, just wanna wish u all the best in ur life in NJ...enjoy mugging dere ba..lol...i will definitely miss the two of u...will definitely invite u 2 to my bdae party next year oso...must come ar den can gather again...=) as for my good friends who need to appeal, i wish u all luck and i will pray for u all on tues....i really really hope dat all of ur appeals are successful coz i dun want anymore ppl in the class to leave ac again...good luck guys..God bless all of u...=)
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From ASF forums (kelvin):
"Loving the right person at the wrong time,
Having the wrong person when the time is right,
And finding out you love someone right after
That person walks out of your life.
And sometimes, you think you're already over a person,
Until you see them smile at you again,
You'll suddenly realize that you're really not.
For some, they think that letting go is one way
Of expressing how much you love the person,
By sacrificing your happiness for theirs,
Without realizing that the other person's
Doing the same thing for them.
Most relationships tend to fail
Not because of the absence of love;
Love is always present,
It's just that one is being loved too much
And the other was being loved too little.
We always fall in love with the person we think we love,
Only to discover that what we loved about them fades.
Bad experiences are always remembered,
But it's the wonderful memories that are captured
To remind us that there are brighter days ahead
And that happiness exists.
You need to learn to let go when you're hurting too much,
Realize that sometimes love just isn't enough
And accept the fact that things aren't always gonna be the same.
There is someone out there who will love you more.
It's all the thought you put into your decisions
That impairs your judgement
When your heart already knows what you need to do.
Listen to your heart. Even though it's on the left side, it's always right."
isn't it really quite true? i'd be selfish to keep this advice to myself xD
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